Is anyone else like this, but the things that I really love, I find it hard to find the words for them? It's why it's difficult for me to talk about art or TV craft in tweets...I assume other ppl feel the same & should have their feelings also undisturbed

But also, so many of the art conversations are just so fucking boring and nobody's talking about anything at the heart of it, no one's willing to say anything revolutionary, and I find a conversation about art or TV criticism to be performative, and well girls, we don't do that

I like the idea of having a professional thing that you do, and that you obviously love, but being able to have other interests and really not even talking about the professional thing because that's so....obvious, you know? Of course y'all know I like art, lol.

I just really detest the whole herd and clique mentality that comes along w/so many of the conversations around criticality. It's not that I'm afraid to say anything, I just find the discourse to be soooo fucking boring. Just dull as all hell.

But also, I care about mastering craft on an almost obsessive level and honestly, it's just rare. I'm certainly not the only person doing deep archival dives. But it is rare. I find general conversations about art or TV craft to be really boring.

And the need to be liked is so overwhelmingly intense in any conversation about art or TV (those in the field). I get it, it's just not an emotional need that I feel and find it on some levels strange, human, pathetic and weak.

I couldn't imagine being burdened with something so asinine and insignificant as wanting to be liked by generalists.

I don't mean necessarily just generalists of a field, but generalists of the human condition. The human experience. There are so many people who afraid of not being liked by people who literally have never lived anywhere except New York City or the coasts.

I'm just a product of my grandfather, who was probably the most elegant man to ever live. He used to say, "if you have to talk about work, you haven't read enough books, been enough places or made love to enough interesting people," it was something that always stuck w/me.

My father who is really to thank for my career in art used to say, "If you're in art and you're talking about art, you're probably the most boring person in the room."

That too, stuck with me.