Why couldn't I have been born physically as a girl? It's so upsetting. I could have had naturally-grown breasts by now, but NOOO. Not to mention that I'd be way happier by simply being born female instead. Dysphoria is basically a terrible fate, but I don't know what...

I truly look like, unlike Link when he was turned into a Deku Scrub by Skull Kid. At least HRT exists nowadays. Really hope I can get on it this year as sometimes my mental state is concerning. I feel really bad for the trans people who lived before HRT's development.

I won't do anything since I know it'll be worth getting proper treatment; it's more just to let people know that it's possible to get very depressed sometimes with the wrong hormone balance.

Back to the first part, I'd greatly prefer to have naturally-developed...

female parts in general. So sad I can't just intuitively understand women. Bad enough that men don't make sense because I'm a woman, but worse that I never got feminine socialization training. My socializing is already kinda faked being on the autism spectrum. It'll be 2(faked).

I do wonder if non-binary people have a similar problem with the socializing thing, where neither one makes sense because they're neither one.

Maybe I can in fact understand women, but only on a "theoretical" level separate from deep understanding, if that makes sense.

Twitter venting kinda can help with the mood a bit, as I feel a little better now and not as upset. It's very possible that my analysis of my ability to understand women is very inaccurate, since it's probably mostly like fashion and boyfriends I don't get.

That would be partially straight women and partially women really into fashion in this case. Neither category is the be-all, end-all of being a woman, anyway. Nothing wrong with either, just my tomboyish transbian brain works very differently. Or rather, doesn't work, it seems...

like sometimes when things get to be too confusing and I just shut down, but that's autism spectrum. Maybe I should just try to get to sleep again. Had to vent though, since I was upset enough to cry earlier just before writing the first post in this thread.