In all seriousness though, I feel more and more at odds with who my fave is as a person now a days. I completely get that people grow and change and I‘m not against that, but the reasons I stanned are becoming more and more a background feature

In that, a huge reason I stanned in the first place was her exuberant personality, her goofiness and over-affection, her being so connected with fans etc. Understandably as she’s matured and also faced a lot of struggles, that is all a bit more hidden now

I still love her and god knows she’s got a strong chokehold on me as a stan, but it is definitely more difficult and detached than things used to be. But this is nothing new and stuff like this happens with school friends etc. where your interests diverge