I have this weird thing where once a few months I get super fucking sad for a whole week and it& #39;s Uncomfortable

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like I try to draw things for myself to cheer up but it doesn& #39;t work and asking my friends for art no matter the reason makes me feel even WORSE and WHINY and ANNOYING and. hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I got issues

and it always happens when I don& #39;t have money to commission people and it& #39;s just ???!!!?!?!??!!!!????!!! I& #39;M JUST ???!!!?!?!??!!!!????!!! OK GUESS IT WILL PASS AGAIN BUT I& #39;M NOT HAVING A GOOD TIME

I& #39;m usually not like this bc I don& #39;t take shit from anyone and I& #39;m v reasonable but eventually there& #39;s stuff that gets to me and I feel bad https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😔" title="Pensive face" aria-label="Emoji: Pensive face">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😔" title="Pensive face" aria-label="Emoji: Pensive face">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😔" title="Pensive face" aria-label="Emoji: Pensive face"> what a sad existence

anyway uhhhhhh there& #39;s vent in this thread so watch out if you don& #39;t want negativity on ur tl atm