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TW: Depression, Loneliness
Dear Twitter Diary,
I know everyone has been feeling lonely lately, but some of these days have been hitting me pretty hard. This year I planned to get out more and reconnect with friends, but I& #39;m not able to do that right now.
Dear Twitter Diary,
I know everyone has been feeling lonely lately, but some of these days have been hitting me pretty hard. This year I planned to get out more and reconnect with friends, but I& #39;m not able to do that right now.
Over the last few years I& #39;ve been more distant from many friends, I had let myself retreat into depression and I was hiding away from the world. I& #39;ve wanted to fix that, but it& #39;s so hard to reconnect when we are all stuck inside.
I find myself crying at least a few times a week lately for various reasons. For one, I miss a lot of people in my life, but also I feel like I& #39;ve missed out on so much of my life over the last several years and this virus is just compounding my feelings of lost time.
I also feel like I& #39;m invisible a lot of the time at least in some cases like I& #39;m forgotten or just not prominent, or that I& #39;m somehow an annoying friend. I& #39;m sorry if I& #39;m ever annoying, trying to interact too much or anything, I don& #39;t mean to be.
Some of my friendships have been trying to find a new balance this last year, and some of that has been bumpy, but I& #39;ve also been trying to become closer friends with some of my female/fem nb friends and feel that& #39;s also been clunky as well. I& #39;m really not trying to be annoying.
I needed to write this thread to get some of my thoughts out and help myself to stop crying, but I also wanted to do it to somewhat let people know how I& #39;ve been feeling. Many often try to keep everything in and deal with them on their own, and doing so has hurt me.
I also want to mention that I& #39;m lucky to have some interaction with my roommates, and while we don& #39;t know each other that well yet...we are gradually making progress.
I know it& #39;s often taboo to share so much on Twitter etc...the internet isn& #39;t a diary or therapist, but just don& #39;t hurt yourself by trying to deal with everything on your own. Talk it out with the internet if you feel the need. 
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