i do think femininity/masculinity (at least what we call that, we could call them something different) is innate. women's bodies represent physical femininity and men's physical masculinity but other than that, what does it say about our consciousness and who we are?

there are many layers to the human experience and not because my body and my hormones are feminine, means that the expression of that will be feminine. i actually believe my femininity ends up making me masculine and i believe that could be the experience of other butches as well

somewhere along the way we decided an unbalanced femininity was a woman expressing it masculinely instead of realizing that the unbalance is in letting ourselves be abused, submitted, etc. by men's unbalanced masculinity and allowing a system of inequality to flourish

then somewhere along the way, we decided that the solution to not get abused was adopting a false masculine persona when that isn't it either. for example, that's naturally how i am, nobody taught me how to be masculine. i've had to fight for it all my life.

and even when i am masculine i still have an unbalanced femininity that doesn't let me tap into its full masculine potential (funny how that works). working to heal my femininity has expressed in me becoming a lot butchier than i thought i was, naturally, because that's who i am

so i think there is a lot more into this than what we've allowed ourselves to dive into. i might write on this more later from a less abstract lens but i just wanted to express a general idea that has been on my mind and part of my conscious journey