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Maybe I should just let out all of my realizations here.. A boring thread 
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#1 Being into an "intimate" relationship in such a young age (15) knowing that it was forbidden due to some unfortunate circumstances just made me realized of how selfish I was.
#2 I was very young back then declaring myself "matured enough" to deal with these kind of things. Well in fact its just the opposite of what I was thinking.
#3 With that situation (in a relationship) I never get to experience some stuff such as hanging out wildly with friends, get the opportunity to make new friends, save up money for myself, etc.
#4 Back then I always thought to myself "Its okay, there are still a lot of time for that to happen" girl you thought wrong cuz pandemic got in the way.
#5 I have done mistakes that a normal "church girl" shouldn& #39;t do. Turned out to be the best ones because I was foolishly in love with the person.
#6 Ridiculous thoughts always float in my mind for almost 2 years made my self fell into anxiety and trust issues. I was so stupid.
#7 Breaking my parents trust was the worst mistake that I have ever done. Legit yung sakit everytime makikita mo yung disappointed faces nila knowing that I was supposed to be that "smart church daughter" who always make them proud
#8 The times that I went through just to rebuild my parents trust was worth it because I got even closer with them. I just thank the church ministry that I& #39;m into, for teaching me valuable things. I literally grew up there.
#9 My bestest friends always told me that its okay to commit such mistakes because I am still young and that was just an experience that I should learn from.
#10 But it was always NOT OKAY for me. Bruh 8 years serving in the church where it has teach me a lot of beautiful things regarding to faith and moral values vs a selfish and foolish act because I was "madly in love" is just wrong. Immorally wrong.
#11 I can& #39;t blame the person because he& #39;s just very wise, smart, talented and sweet. I mean I was just so naive. I should have known better.
#12 And then you get to know his bright and dark sides which I really accepted and embraced. Knowing my personality, I am a very considerate, understanding, and caring (that& #39;s what they say)
#14 If I could turn back the time, I would refrain that from happening. I should& #39;ve let a friendship happen not a relationship.
#15 Thinking about the best moments that I might have experienced but missed. I somehow felt frustrated by not enjoying the rest of my highschool days.
#16 What I really needed back then was friendship not a relationship. I still love him but as a friend. In fact, he was the reason I got into the kpop world so I& #39;m somehow thankful ㅋㅋㅋ
#17 Because of these thoughts and realizations due to experiences, I have decided to set my goals and plan ahead for my future. Up to this day, even if I already confessed those sins, I still pray to apologize and ask for forgiveness from God above.
Well that was a boring thread.
SEVENTEEN WORLD DOMINATION @pledis_17
