moment of appreciation lang sa pag evolve ng pagkatao ko. im honestly proud of what i've become and i can't imagine myself not being the way i am today. :))

having to experience my "Im A sErVaNt Of GoD" phase made me think that i was such in a positive and safe area of my life but eventually i felt like i was just actually getting secluded away from my steps of maturity. i was living in a bubble.

a bubble that concentrates around being a faithful follower and surrendering my life to live aCcOrDiNg tO HiS WiLl.
don't get me wrong tho, if y'all like living that way. u do u. i just felt like i wasn't growing and developing at that certain way of living.

instead, the urge to fall into this known as "temptations" became stronger. i just thirst for growth and development for the sake of my future self.

to be frank, doing all this devotions, investing time in bible reading, attending sunday services, and disciple-ing wasn't really doing it for me. or atleast not anymore. i thirst for real growth coming from actual challenging life situations.

tangina pangarap ko pa ngang maging pastora nuon HAHAHAHAH may seven years seven years pang nalalaman HAUAHHWQHQH

at this point im just being indenial about the fact na ayoko na sa ganong lifestyle hahahahah

bottomline is,,, im not the proverbs 30 or what i think i used to be kind of girl anymore. and i shouldn't feel bad about it.

this thread eventually served as me coming out of this agnostic closet. goodnight guise. mahal kayo ni Lord. sinabi nya sakin yon.