can i just rant? this is a thread and i know no one would read this possibly long thread but anyways

ok so i know what i want to take for college and that is BA Political Science. out of all the courses and programs, this is the one where i'm most comfortable with and i know the best, aside from literature. no one forced me to take this and eventually go to-

-a law school, this is all my decision. but i don't know, even though this is definitely right in my lane and i would love this career path, i feel like i've lost control at my life decisions. even though i'm the one who said i loved this, i still felt... forced.

like i don't know, i felt like i was being dictated on what to do, probably because of dad's plans on me taking this path. he wants me to continue studying even after finishing my four-year course and go all the way, he doesn't even want me to work, plus-

-even though i would love DLSU-D as my university, i don't like the fact that dad as set up a complete plan for me. i don't know what to feel about it. it just feels so ideal and even though it's so much better if i would continue studying with no rest,-

i don't like the fact that he left me with no choice on what should i do in this chapter of my life i'm about to enter in a few months. it's such a twister of emotions going to college because yes, i'm studying at my fav uni with my fav course but with his teeth on my neck,-

i don't feel the excitement. i feel like a robot being told to follow his commands. i don't understand this, especially that i was the one who told this to him in the first place and he agreed. ugh i hate this. thank you to anyone if you made it to the end of this thread. :)

i just need to vent out.