The nightmares are back boys https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😍" title="Smiling face with heart-shaped eyes" aria-label="Emoji: Smiling face with heart-shaped eyes">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😍" title="Smiling face with heart-shaped eyes" aria-label="Emoji: Smiling face with heart-shaped eyes">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😍" title="Smiling face with heart-shaped eyes" aria-label="Emoji: Smiling face with heart-shaped eyes"> time 2 suffer

This one was bad enough that I woke up feeling physically ill. Progress isnt linear but the nightmares are leaking into my awake time. The terror doesn& #39;t stop when I wake up. A year on and it wont stop dude this fucking SUCKSSSS

It is leading to delusions that become intrusive thoughts and focusing is almost impossible. No one told me ending a toxic relationship would be the equivolent of pulling a knife out of my chest. You arent stabbed anymore but the knife was keeping you from bleeding too heavily

I& #39;ll be ok but the scars run dreadfully deep. Idk if its possible to accurately communicate how fucked I feel. There isn& #39;t anywhere to run, there aren& #39;t enough shoulders to cry on... all I& #39;m left with are tears and the hope that moving forward will save me

Just one of my turns. I was feeling pretty good for a while. I& #39;m nearly to a new start and I& #39;m trying my best to become a man worthy of love. I& #39;ve felt pathetic and alone but it& #39;ll be over and I will be a better person for having gone through it.

I wonder how people feel halfway through running a marathon. Do they question why they put themselves through the pain? Is the finish line worth it or do you just go on to another race? I bet they feel lonely a lot. I bet you lose a part of yourself in the race

I& #39;m just posting this thread as a reminder to myself of what this feels like. I& #39;ll push on but I cant forget. It might return that way. I& #39;ll push on
I& #39;ll push on