its been a wild year of discovery working w a therapist, in the past week i've had two personal discoveries i'd like to share for no reason in particular

everyone's openness to risks is different; there's no objective truth for what's risky. for example: entrepreneurs who put pressure on others to also be entrepreneurs — there's a fine line between inspiring and (unintentional) shaming

i'll take a risk when conditions are right

2. i knew this, but im super insecure, and in that insecurity i distanced myself from the design tooling space after leaving fb — claiming to be "bored/done" with the space, when in reality i still actually enjoy it

however, the insecurity was unhealthy — so i had to deal w/ it

while at fb working on things like origami, i had to mute "framer" (sorry yall) on twitter because every time i saw a new fancy feature video i felt immense stress, envy, and pressure to compete

i declined all convos with design tools companies during my job hunt last year

but i still think about the space a lot! as a designer who plays a pm role, i lament the lack of tooling for those who think like me, where UI design is second to framing and scoping

3. theres rarely a decision that's clearly right or wrong. when thinking about life choices (e.g. career), listening to what you want, and not what you "should do" is really difficult to do, but also don't worry too much

to quote from a friend ( http://mclean.xyz ), the person who you are today is not who you will be a year from now — you will not have the same framework for evaluating regret, you will have changed with the path you chose

at first when i heard this i had a hard time processing it — it felt like one had "too much control" over how they saw things. which when i say out loud, feels really silly.

im still working on tackling this deep belief that you can control your own perception to anything