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indulge me while I vent a bit: I think I’m a lousy, amateur artist (nothing new), & like, I feel like the only people who think my art is good are non artists who just think “this looks competently made it must be good”
it’s like if you showed me a piece of classical music that was written in an amateurish way, I’d still probably think “that’s some pretty music” because I have no frame of reference for what qualifies as GOOD classical music
my thought process is like
“I suck as an artist. any artist worth their salt knows I suck”
“why don’t I practice more?”
“I’m always too tired & depressed to draw”
“if this is your passion, why aren’t you more passionate about it? why even make art if it doesn’t make you happy?”
“I suck as an artist. any artist worth their salt knows I suck”
“why don’t I practice more?”
“I’m always too tired & depressed to draw”
“if this is your passion, why aren’t you more passionate about it? why even make art if it doesn’t make you happy?”
I mean, I DO enjoy making art, but I can’t stop getting hung up on comparing myself to everyone else. that’s it, I just cannot look at other artist’s work without gauging how good or bad I am in relation to them
I don’t know how I’m supposed to just stop doing this. it’s like asking me to stop seeing the color green, or stop judging objects based on their relative size to one another. how am I supposed to turn off a basic function of my brain
I can’t even feel inspired by other artists, I just feel defeated. I don’t see other people’s talent as something I’d like to strive for, I see it as a sign saying “this is what I should be doing if I didn’t fucking suck”
I’m not sure how to end this thread. I want validation but that’s only helpful in the short term. I guess I should be improving my self esteem somehow but I fail to see how I would be worth anything to anybody ever. ok that’s all
