For the last 5 months I& #39;ve been beating a drug addiction problem that cost me over 15 years of my life to be wasted.
The last month I& #39;ve felt soulless but continued to fight regardless because I wanted to beat this however feel like life is pointless as my mental health is at..

..an all time low and I don& #39;t have anything to help me get away from the pains of the past now.
After my diagnosis almost 2 years ago of mixed anxiety and depressive disorder I thought knowing my problems would make it easier to deal with but that wasn& #39;t the case.
If anything..

..it has made things harder because I know I would live with the problems for the rest of my life now and there is no fixing it.
Taking away my only getaway has probably helped me see i didn& #39;t want to be alive then but now with a straight head I know I no longer want to live..

This isn& #39;t a plea for help nor is it an attention seek, this is me leaving my honest thoughts on fighting the hardest battle I& #39;ve ever fought and letting people know,I tried to change things but there is no changing a broken person, they& #39;re broken!

Thank you to the people who actually helped me along the way to get this far!
They know who they are and I will always be grateful that someone took time out of their life to offer it to me.
Sorry!