Thread by @DustyToonLink, i wish i was a better personlike for a lot of people, [...]

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i wish i was a better person
like for a lot of people, being nice and happy and inclusive of others comes so naturally to them?? i don& #39;t get it

i always see posts like "if i don& #39;t respond im just forgetful and overwhelmed!!" meanwhile my case is that sometimes i just. don& #39;t want to talk to you anymore. and it won& #39;t even be your fault. i just suck

i know that& #39;s not the right way to go and i don& #39;t enjoy being a dick. but it& #39;s just an overpowering feeling that my body gets and idk how to make it stop. i WANT to be nice. i WANT people to feel like they can have a fun chat with me. but im just not built to be like that.

i think i might be lowkey emotionally exhausted or whatever. i struggle to care about other people and tend to be kinda dismissive towards bad things they go through. i don& #39;t like it and know i should do better, but there& #39;s no inner feeling in me saying that.

its like.. im thinking more logically than emotionally.
i know i need to talk to my friends and be there for them so that our relationship can keep going
but emotionally i just don& #39;t have the energy nor ability to have a serious, lengthy talk over how we feel and what& #39;s going on.

im a surface level friend. we don& #39;t have deep conversations over how we feel about our lives or whatever. we don& #39;t tell each other how we& #39;re feeling and talk about it. we crack spongebob jokes and shitpost nonstop until 3 am.

thats all im really gonna say on this thread
in short: im not built to be as nice as others, and its exhausting trying to reach that level
sometimes im a dick and im not happy about it. i want to love and be nice to my friends and mutuals, but something internal is restricting me

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