i think you actually have to be a bit psychotic to be a scientist or to be in any spiritual work. and there is no judgment on that word from me. the more i think about my job, the less i judge myself because all i did was honor how i think and made it an entire career.

it is very easy to judge yourself if you've internalized labels like "weird" "strange" or if "special" was used in a condescending way rather than an empowering one. and it's a service to yourself to empower that part of yourself and remember that all of us are unique.

and you don't have to be like other people in order to find connection with them. it's the energy of shared experience and shared values that bond us together, not being clones of each other or wanting to emulate someone else's path.

for me personally, i was obviously called weird as fuck because look at how i talk and what i talk about. i've spent my entire life having thoughts that other people think are bizarre and "crazy" but i never shunned that part of myself. i always nurtured what i'm good at.

i have a naturally rebellious spirit because the energy of confinement and control trigger me and that's energy i cannot tolerate ... but i choose to assimilate and detach when necessary. i choose to ebb and flow and still honor myself in every space.