Read on Twitter
After all the book Twitter drama over the last 48 hrs, I’ve woken up very depressed. Some bloggers/reviewers including myself feel like no one is taking us seriously anymore. I boost my links around, but no one seems to care about it. THREAD
I have autism, I haven’t lied about how difficult everyday is for me. I take things to heart all the time. It hurts when one book review I write gets noticed, but another one I write doesn’t. It hurts when I tag people on IG, but they ignore me
It hurts when people text me, I text back and then they ignore or even block me for no reason. It hurts when you don’t get the #ownvoices review copies that you’ve been dreaming about for months. It hurts when two of your closest friends have a major fall out and picking sides.
It hurts when I share links to my work, yet it doesn’t get noticed or others get jealous. It hurts for me personally when I may say something that to me is welcoming, but not according to others and these people don’t bother to tell you that.
To be honest, I generally don’t know if others like my book reviews anymore or the fact that I have a Patron page (well it’s a Ko-Fi page) which I set up not just for fun, but also to find a new platform and audience to support my reviews.
Yeah guys, I’m hurting right now. Really hurting. I feel like a cheat for reading graphic novels, for reading YA as an adult and at one time supporting TGGTVAV but I no longer do.
In conclusion, this lockdown is really getting to me now. I want to be back at work, back at volunteering, be able to see close family again. I’m getting 0 salary, 0 trips to travel into my home city and 0 family trips out. I understand why we all have to do this.
Here’s the thing though: Being autistic means I have no set routine anymore for the first time in years. It’s uncomfortable and mentally daunting. You can all get up, eat, shower, exercise easily. I can’t do that.
I don’t know, it’s very crappy right now. It will be a miracle if people generally do like what I do. Because right now, I definitely don’t feel like they do!
