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it is currently exactly 5am and I have no idea why am I tweeting about this I& #39;m just a broken hearted insomniac man I have to spill my bitchass feelings somewhere rite
it was a pretty calm break up both of us decided it would be for the better and it definitely was and I kept on telling my friends that it in fact didn& #39;t hurt me and that I felt rather free more than being hurt because my partner was controlling
abusive and didn& #39;t respect boundaries, basically made me feel like an object but, I was still in love with her no matter how she treated me and damn right that breakup absolutely hurted me,
2 hours after everything happened, my crush had a breakdown (I started developing a crush on someone during the time my relationship was at its lowest point because this person made me feel really safe and but I know she& #39;s straight and that hurts :) )
and I had to collect myself and had to help her because I rly love her and care about her as a person and I wish I was there to make her feel safe just like she did to me but unfortunately I don& #39;t think I& #39;ve done much even tho she constantly calls me an angel
and then my childhood best friend is having relationship problems so I had to comfort both of them right after a breakup, and that somehow worked as an incredible coping mechanism for me and I have realised that helping people helps me cope with my problems
anyway sorry for this long ass rant right here my. life is pretty eventful
updating this thread because OH bOY is my life eventful, anyways my crush on the straight girl eventually faded away simply because I had to get my priorities straight, nd that is, my lesbian friend with commitment issues who I& #39;ve been crushing on since 2019
she told me she liked me too unlike my ex she& #39;s actually the only person that makes me feel comfortable enough to be myself and we always do this dumb shd together, she& #39;s pretty much a soulmate and wth did u thought was gonna happen were bffs nd were both gay
now we& #39;ll see if I can settle things down with her on Monday (that& #39;s when I& #39;m seeing her), I know she has commitment issues and I won& #39;t even try overstepping certain boundaries without any consent, I don& #39;t think she wants a relationship yet and I& #39;m fine w tha
although we literally planned a legitimate wedding, but it& #39;s not like a joke cause she& #39;s either too committed or isn& #39;t committed at all so shid bruv maybe I was too blinded by my ex to see that the person that I could actually LOVE has always been next to me
like we always shared alot of interests and opened up to each other really quickly, we easily spent time together and we always have fun and let our worries and such things behind, at least that& #39;s how I feel good lord I just hope its not one sided
even tho she& #39;s told me over a million times she feels the same I get doubtful at times cause I know I can be a pain in the ass sometimes, although she didn& #39;t really show discomfort or annoyance yet
but there& #39;s always a time that can happen and I need to be careful not to literally let my future wife down, (don& #39;t question it it& #39;s a good plan STFU) I got reassurance from her quite alot but I still need to be 100% she isn& #39;t feeling uncomfortable
since ya know I don& #39;t want this mutual thing to ruin our friendship as well, neither of us are affectionate so it would pretty much be the same still right? except with the fact we love each other rite
BRUH I HATE MY LOVE LIFE SO MUCH AFKJAKFKS
