i don’t want to b annoying but i genuinely can’t help it

ok i grew up learning how to make myself as small as possible at all times to avoid scrutiny + criticism + punishment, n that really affected me as i became older n struggled to express myself in any way without feeling guilty immediately after... in case i had been Too Much

i feel like now i tend to overcompensate for years of stifling myself by jus being On all the time, n sharing everything n saying whatever i feel like n putting it all out there. i am still super conscious abt being too much, maybe i always will be

im trying to stop being afraid of other ppl finding me annoying n jus owning the fact that i probably am n that’s ok lol

like i send too many msgs at once, i tweet way too much, i constantly post shit on my ig story that no one asked for, too many selfies on every platform, i get it it’s a lot n ik it’s annoying but it feels so much better than when i was so afraid to do anything i wanted ....

even now w this thread im like djdj shu t the fuck up literally no one wants to hear this...... but then, i want to say it? n that should b enough