Let me just write this one thing that's kind of weighing me down so that I can continue my morning peacefully:

Is it wrong when I feel a bit disappointed when in the end no one reach out for me? I mean, I get it, if I need someone to contact me, then I need to reach out first+

It's logical. But still, I'm disappointed. No one text me just to give a little update of their life. It means I'm that unimportant to them...

... Which is logical, because I don't text them, too. They have their own family, friends, significant others, who are much more+

care and willing to communicate with them just because.

Same with my family. No one talk to me because I don't talk to them. But let's not go in this direction now, because it's too much

Sometimes you just need to admit that what you want is illogical. You once had friends who cared for you and asked for your well being, but what did you do? You didn't return their feeling! You insisted you didn't deserve them so you drove them away

You were right! In the end you didn't deserve any of them

Ok but back to the topic, if you want people to reach out to you then reach out first! But also don't expect too much for them to return what you give

Just... Show them that you're available for them

Show them that you care

Always give, give, and give

Okay?

I'll be back to this thread once my mind set and will decide wether to erase this or not