I never write long tweets but at this hour, restless and a bit hopeless, I’m gonna write. I’ve had a pretty mopey day, I am still grieving for two important people in my life. But more importantly I’ve recently embarked on a transformation challenge thanks to a mate (1)

I’ve been exercising a lot, sometimes 5 times a week, getting to a whopping 2.5 minute plank and running 3k which is the furthest I’ve run in a while. I’ve been so humbled by people being inspired by what I’m doing, dropping messages to me saying well done (2)

yet somehow I just felt shit. I went for a walk with my nan and came back and took a photo of myself saying I felt I looked cute. I suppose in that moment I maybe did but looking back on the photo I tell myself my tummy is bulging out of my dress or my legs aren’t slim enough (3)

I don’t really know why I’ve written this thread, I suppose it’s to remind myself of how far I’ve already come on my fitness journey and where I’ll be next week, next month, or even next year. All 9 stone of me will hopefully be lighter, happier, energised and stronger https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="❤️" title="Red heart" aria-label="Emoji: Red heart">

Most importantly, I’ll look back and be proud I’ve made a change. These times are shitty, but i sometimes (when I’m in a positive mindset) look at it as a blessing. I’ve wanted to get in shape and be fitter and I’ve been gifted with time. Now is your chance to make a change! (6)

I think at the moment I’m impatient about my results, I’ve been out of shape for a while and unfit and told myself I was doing enough exercise. I wasn’t. I desperately think back to when I was at my slimmest at uni when I was fit and willing those days to come back (4)

I said to myself when I could complete a 5k without stopping I could have a packet of crisps or a chocolate bar, or both https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😂" title="Face with tears of joy" aria-label="Emoji: Face with tears of joy">. I’m always looking in the mirror at myself sideways and hating on my bulging belly. (5)