I get it. In the gay world, I’ll never be a “popular white gay”. In the board games I’ll never be “a successful white content creator”.

It sucks because that’s how I compare my success because THEY are considered desirable, successful.

I try to separate myself. It’s tiresome.

Half of me wants to just stop trying because I don’t *need* to do this. It’s a hobby. It’s not my livelihood.

BUT I have fostered a community that I care truly about. And that’s the half that motivates me to, at the very least, promote other marginalized voices in my community.

Ive created a space for ME too. It’s partly selfish. My people support my asianess, my queerness, my chubby muscles and my random content.

It makes me feel good. Y’all make me feel good. Sorry for these bouts of negativity. It really is draining and boils over from time to time.