And so I chose

to stay in the fight

Inwardly I was outraged

Outwardly I held my peace

And they?

They were just biding their time

A loose cannon isn't ejected #quietly

So there came into being a truce of sorts

And I became busy..

Information is power & they had been careless

Not content with having pushed me out of my workplace

Cutting me off from any face that dared to be friendly

Certain individuals now starting p*ssing around with the paperwork

Because, you see, I was still dealing with the admissions & discharges 4 that unit

from afar
via fax

At this juncture it is worth mentioning

that there had been an 'unfortunate' spate

of incidents from that unit

whereby, I believe, no less than 3 clients had taken their lives

within a two week period

This was b4 the #whistleblow & shocking to all concerned

Very tragic..

Which is why it is IMPERATIVE that any client receiving treatment at any #psychiatric unit

is admitted via the system

& discharged on the day -
at the time

Because should anything happen there is a record

A history of movement

Basic procedure

As Ward Clerk this was my job

But you are only as good as the information you are given

and games were played

missing data

empty spaces

intelligible writing

I was rarely off the phone - or the email

in a bid for accuracy

Absolutely crucial

And this went on for months ~

But as I stated earlier

I'd been busy - very busy

photocopying

collating

gathering

recording

The ward office was small & there were too many prying eyes - the tentacles of the #DenbighMafia reached far

I needed a safe place to stash my info

& I knew just the woman

She worked in the unit where I was now based

And was an established member of staff

But not the most popular

I like loners - those out on the edge

so had sought her out & become friendly

I knew I could trust her as I knew she trusted me

Willingly she came to my aid

It's worth mentioning at this point that not all were under the #DenbighMafia umbrella

Some managed to walk a fine line & relations were good

You just couldn't be SEEN to be supportive & too friendly

I remember the names of each & every one

They were also FANTASTIC nurses

Then came the #Bombshell

The NWW Trust was to merge with its Eastern cousin

All of a sudden I was facing redundancy

The Mafia could barely contain their joy

After nearly two years of fighting the #goodfight

They were about to get rid of me

& so I upped the ante...

So here we are - & here am I

Again

But why?

I often asked myself the same question when I took up the challenge time & time again

as #bullies & #abuses ran amok

in I went & toe-to-toe we'd go

Only now does it all makes sense...

All of it

#whistleblowers we shake up sh*t

And with the current climate of #lies & #deceit that surround us

It is really, truly the #frontlineworkers I am appealing to

The #NHS Cannon Fodder that are being wheeled out daily
to do battle against the #coronavirus on the

#instruction

of this treacherous #ToryGovernment

My #art is #words #wisdom & #willpower

Because when you #BlowTheWhistle

All hell breaks loose

But that's ok

Because where there is #darkness

there is #light

You've just go to have #faith in #yourself

& face-down the #Beast

Take back your #power &

Face. It. Down.

I had more than one #beast to face
when I took on the #DenbighMafia

#Betsicadwaldr #HealthBoard now -

& still I fear you not

Because the #truth as they say

Always comes out in the end -

Wonder how many of you are still left

Judging by recent reports

Still too many...

So let's rewind to a time when your power ran

unchecked

I'd blown the whistle. Two investigations into what had been CRASS #negligence had been effectively buried

And then there was me

about to be made redundant

Yet knowing what I knew gave me some leverage

I made a fuss

I'm good at that

In fact you could safely say that I enjoy it too much

Guilty as charged -

But then so were you

Keen to keep the loose cannon inside the confines of your impressive #armoury

I was offered a position

An oh how I will never forget that meeting ...

The #Unison official was with me, of course

Dang, would you go into a #snakepit without a sturdy stick ??

Hell NO

Although to be fair it was more akin to going into the #LionsDen

And when I heard your proposal I simply couldn't stop myself

#laughing
in your face

& why?

It was #audacious alright

Sheer unadulterated #cheek !

But it still made me laugh because the nice new #admin position was to be

amongst YOU LOT!

Who did you think I was? Fricking #Daniel ??

Or better still -

a lamb to the #slaughter

Oh yeah..

Not this baby...

Meeting concluded not long after that

And well I remember the pained expressions as I grinned from ear to ear

All the way out of the room & through reception of the

NICE new #hospital

Eyes on my back with the odd phantom dagger

Suffice to say I chuckled ALL the way home

us Sagi's like a challenge but after being put thru hell by you lot

there was NO way I was going to allow myself to be the proverbial duck #fcuk

no

But the clock was ticking - just a couple of weeks left until I shook the dust off from my hooves forever

I laid my plans...

Quietly. Meticulously.

& then came the day

I don't mind admitting my stomach was in a knots that morning

But not with fear - just pure undiluted #adrenaline

I'd made phone calls the night b4

One to a friend. The other my #union rep

Could they meet me there?

They could -

That was the first part

the second was to go into work early without arousing suspicion

There were still #DenbighMafia about remember

But there were also friendly faces

As I came on to the ward I was greeted by the latter

This allowed me to go about my business undisturbed

Didn't take long - I just needed to be out b4 the Manager came in

because then there would be questions like

Where are you going ?

I left the office never to return & made my way to where another friendly face waited

With my #stash of documentation

I thanked her & left -

I'll never forget the weather on that fateful day

Heavy rain & gail-force winds made for an exhilarating drive

and believe me #CruellaDeVil had nothing on me that morning!

I was like a woman #possessed but then by that point I had nothing to lose -

***To be continued....

Wow have I had a BUSY day! Moving & shaking grooving & #making links & connections of ALL sorts!

Such is the life of a former #whistleblower with the heat of battle STILL warm in her veins

May it warm the cockles of YOUR #fightingspirit because THIS is what it's ALL about

& correct me if I'm wrong - but just where in the #BookOfLife does it say that people can take control of your waking #working life & walk all over you?

#Where ?

What gives #them the #right ?

But more importantly what can you do about it...

What can you do ?

Well now....

Well for my part - by the time I was rolling on the road to Bangor

I'd simply had enough

Baiting bullying badass behaviour

And oh boy did you unleash the #witch in me

But finally I was to have my moment & I couldn't wait...

Bitch-fuel ?

And the rest -

I arrived to find my friend waiting in the lobby

Complete with all the other files

I'd left with the Union

Unfortunately the Rep couldn't be there

But not everyone is made for the fight

especially when it's #bareknuckle

because Oh yes

the gloves were off

#nuffsaid

And without further ado I headed straight up the stairs

to the Chief Exec's office

I'd done my homework on her

Hadn't long been in the post

Wondered what she would think of all this

I almost felt sorry for her

What an awful start to the day

But mine was about to get better

She hadn't arrived but her sec was there

And so was my friend. With me. My witness.

I dumped all the files on her desk & let rip

Poor woman was flummoxed but recovered quite quickly

She got it

As she got me

as two years came pouring out

What a trooper she was!

I asked if she would make a phone call for me

I was officially #AWOL

a ward was missing its clerk

& it was only fair my 'bosses' knew

Where I was...

And why

The secretary made the call in front of me

my favourite part

as I imagined the faces...

We waited awhile but the main player was late

Perhaps it was the weather

or Fate playing a hand

Either way - my message had been delivered

& all of a sudden all I wanted to do was sit down

chill & have coffee

with my friend

It had been a long old road but -

Know that if I had the choice

I would do it all again

Because more than one seed was planted that morning

It took a little time

But it did bear fruit

The #DenbighMafia had met their match

but it did come at a price -

A man sits in a secure unit

failed by the very people who were supposed to help him

Complacency & cowardice had sealed his fate

& nearly taken the life of a decent man

kept in the dark

A father too a family man

I'm so glad he's still with us but I wonder if has nightmares

To be driving one minute & then feel the knife

To come so close to death

I couldn't get past it

in all that time...

The arrogance of the decision. The failure to comply &

worst of all

the blatant disregard for another person's life

I could do something

& so I did -

I just had to have #faith

in myself

And that no matter the odds

and being outnumbered

#Right was on my side -

& that there would come a day

when I would look back

on it all

as you would like a #dream

only -

& here's the rub ...

The friend who stuck by me & met with me that morning

is still a friend

Her name is Steph Healy & she was the Instructor

She left the #NHS once she found her groove

I call her The Seer of the North

We've both come a long way these past 10 years.. https://www.puresound.org.uk/ 

I left North Wales once my job was done

And no regrets not one

There had been battles before & several since

I guess you could say it's in the blood

but I've never turned the other cheek

& I'll make no apologies for that

Some things happen for a reason & so do people

So to finish this #Thread

I'll leave you this

Seek your tribe & look within

& know that if we all did this

what a truly wonderful & #safer world it would be

4 everyone

& why?

Because it is our #right

To say #NO & take up the #fight

With the #whistleblower