getting p serious about applying for phd programs in american studies (or, possibly, gender studies or cultural studies) so as to continue my research & ethnography on abortion clinic protests

any & all input more than welcome!!

aight y'all, i'm deadass serious about this: i've narrowed it down to 7 programs (4 in american studies, 3 in gender studies) and i'm gonna work so hard over the next 6 months to make this happen

unfortunately this will include retaking the GRE (since my scores expired in september, RIP)

i literally just googled how to calculate the area of a triangle so i can go study affect theory and biopolitics lmfao

holy crap, just remembered this tweet (here's hoping i make a better decision next time.......) https://twitter.com/rsl318/status/578230385240338432

still in disbelief that i'm having to start over (re-taking the GRE, paying ~$1000 to apply to a new batch of schools, re-doing coursework, re-taking comps) & all of this started BECAUSE I ASKED MY ADVISOR NOT TO TEXT ME AFTER 10PM

but the warped time of quarantine has given me the space to realize that i'm so so passionate about my project; about learning, teaching, research, writing, ethnography....

every morning i state out loud 'i am smart as fuck' & 'i can do this'

(sorry for the ramble-y coffee-fueled thread; i'll probably delete this in like an hour)

oh god, i just realized that if i had 'stuck it out' in my toxic musicology program i would be 'on the market' next year

going on 'private' as i embark on this process of networking w/ bombass scholars & planning out my applications!!! let's fuckin go!!!

(if i seem overly peppy, i apologize- my days are filled w/ depression & helplessness, as i'm sure they are for so many, and gaining clarity about my goals & my future is sort of my only motivator rn)

grad school question: in general, is it possible to apply to multiple programs w/in the same university? (for instance, applying to a gender studies AND american studies program)

sorry if this is a stupid question! i was raised real podunk