Why did I bother emailing my dad evidence that the US press is lying about China when I had little faith he wouldn& #39;t do exactly as he& #39;s doing now: willfully miss the point? What good is literacy without comprehension, i.e. the ability to fucking think?
How stupid do you have to be to think that I want you to read an article as though it& #39;s stating fact when the very subject line of the email says how it& #39;s lying and distorting? "The article you sent me said..." and I said it& #39;s lying! My mind is literally fucking blown by this.
I& #39;m just so fucking exhausted of him thinking his ignorance is equal to any amount of studying, which I admit I haven& #39;t even done a lot of, just enough to know bullshit when I see it. Am I obligated to do the homework for someone who has no interest?
I tried coming out to him as non-binary 2-3 years ago, when I hadn& #39;t yet accepted that I was a woman, and again it was the same fake neutral posing-the-(rhetorical)-question-as-a-curious-intellectual draining, exhausting shit.
He sleeps at night figuring I "read it somewhere" no matter the topic. "How do you know what you& #39;re reading is truer than what I& #39;m reading?" You& #39;re gonna two-sides me when you& #39;re the one who only reads one? It& #39;s frustrating as fuck. I wish I could get out from this madhouse.
Not to mention not all of it is from reading. When it comes to transmisogyny that& #39;s my life fucking experiences that I draw from with or without a book. Books sometimes just help give a vocabulary and glossary of terms to what I& #39;ve experienced.
But like, the way it& #39;s always "read it somewhere" is just him deciding to put it less harshly than calling me a "conspiracy theorist" or "extremist." He& #39;s not clever. I fucking see the gaslighting.
Also despite him understanding the absurdity of me asking him to prove that santa claus isn& #39;t real he doesn& #39;t recognize the countless times he does the goddamn equivalent when it comes to defending other nations from us lies
He& #39;s able to recognize that the burden of proof isn& #39;t on proving that something didn& #39;t happen, but falls on the person making a claim. Yet, bc he& #39;s such a rabid orientalist, he still demands to be shown how santa claus isn& #39;t real, and believes what he hears as long as cnn said it
And I& #39;m not just saying he understands. He& #39;s atheist, and when I say "prove to me santa claus isn& #39;t real," he pauses, and I know he sees my point, because he& #39;ll say "I get what you& #39;re saying, it& #39;s like asking me to prove that god isn& #39;t real" so he fucking gets it.
Sorry for the rambling idk what purpose this thread serves other than to vent. I& #39;m just tired of the condescension and him assuming he knows more than me, even when it& #39;s something I directly experience.
I& #39;m just gonna stop making an effort to educate him. You can& #39;t teach the unwilling, and I& #39;ve given him enough to think about if he ever decides to stop being a dumbass.
Through all the emotional and verbal abuse, I& #39;ve tried to act in good faith, figuring maybe he& #39;s insecure that I& #39;m reading things he can& #39;t find & wants exposure to what I& #39;ve been exposed to but deep down I knew he wanted the relief of seeing it so he can find a ways to dismiss it
I thought maybe it was an insecurity where, truth be told, he recognizes that I know something he doesn& #39;t, along the lines of his competitiveness, and he wanted to catch up. As I suspected, the truth is that it only bothered him bc it was unknown https://twitter.com/daniellesb_/status/1216246942386122757">https://twitter.com/danielles...
and now that I& #39;ve started sharing with him the stuff I find, he& #39;ll sleep much more peacefully because he found a way, which he was always committed to, to question and dismiss it.

hOw dO yOu kNoW iT& #39;s AnY mOrE tRuE? (what he means: I& #39;ll believe what I want to believe)
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