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Before any of this is read I need to say this is not again any of my friends I love em this is just what my overthinking ass brain thinks and I need to use Twitter as me outlet.
So after the whole Facebook GC thing and when almost everyone said "you don't even look bad anyways" it made me realise I never get complimented unless it's out of petty to make me feel, better like thanks but ik what's up man.
Ik I do that to people and ik they look fine. But this isn't about my friends this is just me thinking out of my friend group because of course they're gonna say that they're my friends.
But most of my friends I spend time with are chicks, so when they say oh this dude looks good or whatever. I immediately compare myself to put myself in their mindset and bruh ik I ain't even close to that.
And that automatically puts me thinking if anyone at all has ever complimented me that wasn't my friend to make me feel better. And the answer is zero. So I'm back at thinking I'm an ugly piece of shit who is incapable of being loved because I'm stupid and overthink too much
And if this thread seems hostile to certain people, I don't want it to be I just am jealous when others get compliments and I never do and it's some sore loser toxic ass ways of thinking and I hate it and hate myself for it
That's it for tonight, now we're back to our regular scheduled programing of, shoving everything back inside because I said it somewhere once.
