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in all honesty twitter intimidates me to the point I think so many times before posting a tweet. I am for some reason really scared to say something, seeing how some people react to small mistakes or even as simple as ghost tweeting someone. it's scary.
if someone tweets anything like "oomf annoying" or "can oomf shut up" , even if it's not meant for me, it screams at me saying I'm the one, and I end up deleting tweets and going on a hiatus. especially with my history with social anxiety, it's not helping at all.
so I really can't imagine how scared some people would be if they get that hate in a large number. even if they truly feel that they did a mistake and owned up to it. I guess it's just how the internet works, you can't stop anyone from saying what they want.
sometimes it can only do more harm than good. I remember when I got bullied by a gc for a simple reason, but I couldn't even stand up for myself and asked a friend to help me, that's how terrible my self confidence is. it's really scary and I want it to change.
this is the very first time I'm tweeting as me, without any facade, without thinking through and just tweeting what I think, rambling in other words. I don't know why I'm doing this but I hope this thread helps you understand how scary twitter can be sometimes
especially to people with different cultures, it's really intimidating. it's scary how the language I use, the way I type, the tweets I post has always been influenced by others on this app and what people think about me. I want to throw that away.
we come here so that it's a safer place for us to be ourselves, but end up putting on another facade to hide ftom another one. it's exhausting. and that's why I go ia time to time, and as much as it is exhausting, I can't deny the amazing people I met here.
again I don't know why I'm rambling all of this, probably because this quarantine has finally gotten to me, or maybe I was just tired of keeping up with everyone. anyways im going back to sleep.
