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A ranting thread of why I hate men, Will get updated randomly and is just a way for me to vent. These are my experiences with comphet and manipulative men too.
TW:// sex, sexual harassment and rape, plus possibly some self harm, and also men
TW:// sex, sexual harassment and rape, plus possibly some self harm, and also men
First of all, when I say I hate men, I hate the idea of men and the mentality that men have, yes I have friends who are men don’t worry ur lil butts off
Also if you’re a man who gets offended by “I hate men” comments, you’re part of the problem, if you’re truly the one good guy, you don’t need to comment “but all men are bad UwU, I’m a good guy!” Because goodness doesn’t need to be bragged for praise
With my experiences with comphet I’ve been with 4 men in general, they will be named A, B, C and D in order of dating. Funnily enough the fourth one is a right dick. I forced myself to have an attraction to them and struggled to actually love them in general.
With A, he was a long distance relationship and my first official boyfriend, my ‘first’ boyfriend was just a prank from a guy I had a crush and lasted a week because it meant nothing to him. I’m still hurt by this. But A was my first official bf
Overall A wasn’t too bad, he was lovely, understanding and overall friendly though he did try and say if we could have a second chance, when I said no he did accept it. However I wasn’t keen on FaceTiming him, I was more comfy with text due to comphet
I though I liked A but I really didn’t, when we broke up I had no hurtful feelings, yet when I had my first gf I full on cried my eyes out even tho it lasted a few days. There’s nothing too much on A apart from The fact he pestered for another chance and kept trying to ft me
Even though I said no, he did have one moment when he harmed himself because he thought he hurt me but idk about any motives of this. My main experience was just that I didn’t really want to see his face and struggled to get an attraction to him.
B was another long distance relationship but we actually started off as decent friends then he asked me out, things went okay for a few months until he ghosted me and muted me, saying his friend did it but then did it again. To this day I have no idea why he did this and even
Tho I had no attraction to him, it kinda hurt because he was a good friend. My attraction to him was more of a friendship kind and I was forcing myself to be with him and push things further due to comphet. I’m still salty about the mute because it was no unneeded
C was... he was my first bf physically, we were together for 4 months and well it was okay during the time. Until he kept on touching me in public, especially grabbing my breasts in college and then being manipulative. Saying that I was selfish for wanting hugs all the time
When I told C to stop grabbing me he continued, when he went to mine one day and we made out and he grabbed my chest then, I felt nothing. It was just a touching sensation and that was it. He then made fun of my claims of sexual harassment and joked about my gender.
D was the absolute worst man I’ve been with and met personally, the entire relationship was abusive and manipulative. I won’t say too much just in case, but he gaslight me, made me do everything for him and tried to have sex with me when I was drunk
He was the first guy I had sex with, I felt absolutely nothing in terms of sensation, in fact I somewhat disliked it, something about it was wrong but my mind refused to accept that I am a lesbian, I lied to myself to be with this utter cunt.
He got fussy at me for saying no to things, arguing me until I gave in, being eerily calm to make me feel bad and calling me a psycho and bipolar. Now there’s one thing I’m still coming to terms with.
D had raped me, in my mind I feel like I’m overreacting but my friends have said otherwise. When we were about to have sex, he wanted to do anal, I said no again and again but he wouldn’t accept it, I finally gave in and said we could try it.
I’ve never felt so much disgust and wrongness during sex, I hated it and told him to stop as soon as, I said I didn’t like it but he didn’t stop, he kept pushing in and moving, trying to get me to enjoy it when I told him I hated it.
It wasn’t until I stopped him moving physically that he went huffy and forced me to sort him out before he silently continued, clearly not happy. I feel like I’m overreacting but, he technically raped me for continuing when I said to stop.
When I was drunk and he was sober, he also tried to have sex, moving my hand with this intend. I told him no and had a go at him for it, he didn’t like it. I’m still coming to terms of this and idk how I feel, am I overreacting?
