what do you do if you went from being a staunchly anti gun lib to a pro-gun leftist who wants to own one someday, but you also got fired from a barista job partly bc the loud ass blender made you so anxious, you& #39;d refuse to turn it on. I feel like that doesn& #39;t bode well.

if I ever had to fire a gun in a crisis, it& #39;d take 5mins of psyching myself up for the noise & by the time I& #39;d think "its ok, sudden loud noises aren& #39;t always bad--", I& #39;d be dead