what do you do if you went from being a staunchly anti gun lib to a pro-gun leftist who wants to own one someday, but you also got fired from a barista job partly bc the loud ass blender made you so anxious, you'd refuse to turn it on. I feel like that doesn't bode well.

if I ever had to fire a gun in a crisis, it'd take 5mins of psyching myself up for the noise & by the time I'd think "its ok, sudden loud noises aren't always bad--", I'd be dead