I'm really, really thankful for people who understand the struggles of keeping yourself maintained in stabilizing faith. Because back then, I didn't see it that way, and being where I am now really opens my mind, beyond religion, beyond merely 'principles'.

Back then I went pretty hard on religion, and my whole self revolved around it but somehow not spiritually, which no matter how I tried convincing myself, it's somehow not fulfilling and I kept on faking the completeness.

And at my current state, I'd do my best to steer away from the term 'religion', and really focused on how's does it feel to know our God. To learn His values. And I know how low I am right now at being a good Muslim, far away from being a disciplined servant.

It touched me to read this specific reply on one's question about believing in Him but not fulfilling other pillars of Islam, and the way he replied is very non-judging, yet encouraging at the same time and that is the least i see in most religious people.

Don't start talking about not all are same etc, I know, and I've been there. You can never claim to understand how it works from another perspective unless you've been there. And tho I'm no proud in being less of a servant than I was back then, I felt that there's something He-

-wants me to learn all this while, maybe to just be more emphatic. Maybe to learn how others think. Maybe to just get rid of the pride, the privilege of being educated about religion at such early age. To stop thinking how 'maksum' we are.

I guess this spirituality thing really went pretty hard on me deep inside hehe I've been convincing my lecturers to accept my proposal on spiritual sanctuary since previous semester

Yall I'll delete this thread in the morning cs this aint me to talk deep hahahahaha this account is supposed to be all light keke