hi, so after a month of quarantine... kadami kong narealize. tbvh, my faith was shaken... kadami kong doubts, fears, and anxieties. Like everyday parang galit ako kasi hindi ako mapakali sa aking ginaisip. Tas there are times na magbreakdown ako during midnight kasi
— kadami kong negative thoughts. Pero I've realized na kaya pala hindi ako mapakali, kasi hindi ko pa napapatawad sarili ko. I've been caging myself with my past mistakes, na nakalimutan ko na pinatawad na pala ako ng Diyos sa mga kasalanan ko. I've been blaming myself A LOT.
Pero dapat pala hindi. I've also been scared of my future, kasi ginaneglect ko yung gusto ko talaga as a person. Pero this quarantine made me face my real self. Narealize ko kung ano pala talaga gusto ng puso ko. Kung ano yung passion ko.
I still have a long way to go,, pero I'm glad na I was able to get those skeletons out of my closet. I've made peace with myself, I was able to accept my toxicity and how I could stop myself from letting my toxic trait hurt other people.
That's why I'm also encouraging others, na instead of being occupied by other things, why not pause for a bit? It's not harmful to stop for a while, and think about what you really want for your future. Ampanget kase na magcocollege ka nalang, di mo parin talaga nakikila
kung sino ka talaga diba?? Or that masyado kang nagpupumilit na maging productive pero you're not even sure if you're doing this wholeheartedly. Kaya take a pause and listen to your heart
