Oh noo a negative tweet! Skip if you don& #39;t want your day to be ruined https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😣" title="Persevering face" aria-label="Emoji: Persevering face">
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I know that the port-o-folio day tag is great for artists to broadcast themselves and even market their art to newer audiences but lmao it suddenly brings out a big-

chunk of insecurity in me instead of inspiration or motivation. I& #39;m glad to see young talent as well as professionals in the industry using this tag but I hate how my mind instantly compares that to what I have as an aspiring artist and see that-

I barely have anything great to show. Call me weird or overreacting but this tag also feels like people can even secure a possible job and that I can& #39;t even push myself to be that good and do the same. lmaoo idk maybe i& #39;m still haunted by that memory of when-

I submitted my portfolio when i applied for a scholarship before entering college and got rejected, thus disappointing my family and those who believed in me. It just brought this mindset that no matter what I do or give out, it& #39;ll just never be enough https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😔" title="Pensive face" aria-label="Emoji: Pensive face">

Lmao that& #39;s pretty much about it maybe i& #39;ll scold myself later and delete this thread for feeling this way and do a 180 and be motivated to do better https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🤔" title="Thinking face" aria-label="Emoji: Thinking face"> anyways back to reading jill/carlos fanfics on ao3 weeee