Had a talk with a mental health counselor once upon a time who recommended poems as a way to vent, and I had to turn a poem in for my online class on mental health (1/9) Just ignore this thread cause TW

So i will post the poem with redacting information (2/9)

Im sorry

For such cruel words

and cruel actions

my mind is playing tricks

and making me lose hope

that once i find something good

someone good

i can never keep them

but sometimes i feel so upset

and think back to how i was (3/9)

deciding that maybe im not getting better

like i once did

that maybe I had to get rid of you

and many others

because I didnt deserve anyone

to miss me when Im dead

and you dont deserve

to grieve someone like me

because my mind tells me (4/9)

that its better to lose a friend

before you can really hurt them

before they can get too attached

that to hurt them in a way

that can leave a scar

that they dont deserve (5/9)

how am i supposed to say these words

and make my problem

a reality i didnt want to face

because im alone

because im not strong enough to deal

with this myself

because i cant seek help

because i cant risk hurting you(6/9)

how am i supposed to say these words

when im afraid of what you might do

Im sorry for hurting you

Im sorry for being your friend

Im sorry to everyone else that ive hurt

for repeating actions

over and over again

relapsing over and over again

i just wanted to say(7/9)

im sorry

and maybe ask

if you can remember me

once in a while (8/9)

I find that poetry helps even if its no good to read

TW ig idk, leave this thread alone ig