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@Alice_Evelyn_ OK. I saw what you said after(?) you blocked me last week.
I know. I understand. I really do.
My problem is that I don’t always recognize that I’m having a meltdown like that until it’s too late. I don’t want to hurt you, either, b/c it hurts me just as much. /1
I know. I understand. I really do.
My problem is that I don’t always recognize that I’m having a meltdown like that until it’s too late. I don’t want to hurt you, either, b/c it hurts me just as much. /1
(BTW all these images are just things I can relate to that I feel are relevant to this situation. They’re here to help me out w/ explaining things.)
As I’m sure you’re already well aware, I can get a *little* bit emotional at times. I try to stay as positive as I can, but then..
As I’m sure you’re already well aware, I can get a *little* bit emotional at times. I try to stay as positive as I can, but then..
..things eventually start falling apart and I go a-spiralin’ down on the Emotional Roller Coaster Ride On The Highway To Hell™ and then I start to lose it. When that happens, I just need someone who’ll listen to and comfort me (ex. giving me some hugs/cuddles/snuggles/etc.) to..
..reassure me that things are going to be OK and that there are people who actually care about/love me. Actual advice is always appreciated, of course, but it’s not required.
I do depend heavily on others for support, that’s true (and I’ve even told you that). The issue there..
I do depend heavily on others for support, that’s true (and I’ve even told you that). The issue there..
..is that I simply have neither the confidence in myself nor the mental energy to deal w/ it myself all the time. It’s exhausting trying to keep up. When all you can find is depression, anxiety, and dysphoria, it can be really difficult to find the positives, y’know? I’m..
..so ridiculously shy and, honestly, just plain scared to even attempt to find people to talk to out of fear that I’ll get shut down and rejected. But actually trusting them enough to ask them for help is an entirely different beast in and of itself. It’s either extremely quick..
..(it was like that w/ you, things just seemed to click), or mind-numbingly slow, no in between. My fear of being abandoned.
But yeah, it’s around 2:30 AM here and I don’t want to start going off on some random tangent to make this even longer lol. So, I think I’ll end off here.
But yeah, it’s around 2:30 AM here and I don’t want to start going off on some random tangent to make this even longer lol. So, I think I’ll end off here.
I understand what you said. I know I need to figure some shit out. I’m not perfect, but at least I’m not fake.
I’ve said it a million times, but I’ll say it again. I’m so sorry for all the anxiety and stress I’ve caused.
I hope to talk to you soon, and as always, I love you
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I’ve said it a million times, but I’ll say it again. I’m so sorry for all the anxiety and stress I’ve caused.
I hope to talk to you soon, and as always, I love you
@Alice_Evelyn_ Apologies again for this, but I just have a few more things I need to get out of my system which will maybe reach your eyeballs lol https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😝" title="Squinting face with tongue" aria-label="Emoji: Squinting face with tongue">
I fucking wish I knew how to help myself feel better when I’m seriously depressed, but nothing feels enjoyable. I’m just bored..
I fucking wish I knew how to help myself feel better when I’m seriously depressed, but nothing feels enjoyable. I’m just bored..
..all the time and it sucks, y’know?
I’m fine w/ spending some time by myself, but sometimes I just need a little love and affection. Validation is always nice too, b/c h*ck dysphoriahttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😜" title="Winking face with tongue" aria-label="Emoji: Winking face with tongue">
I’m fine w/ spending some time by myself, but sometimes I just need a little love and affection. Validation is always nice too, b/c h*ck dysphoria
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I think that’s all I have to say right now. I’m not sure exactly when you’ll want to talk to me again. As much as I hope it’ll be soon, I’ll just have to wait and find out lol https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😅" title="Smiling face with open mouth and cold sweat" aria-label="Emoji: Smiling face with open mouth and cold sweat"> But hey, a girl can dream, can’t she? https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😜" title="Winking face with tongue" aria-label="Emoji: Winking face with tongue">
wuv u fwendohttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="❤️" title="Red heart" aria-label="Emoji: Red heart"> *hugs*
wuv u fwendo
@Alice_Evelyn_ OH, one more thing. IDK if you’ve seen the rest of this thread, so I’ll say that yes, this is Nyatalie https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😜" title="Winking face with tongue" aria-label="Emoji: Winking face with tongue"> (Please don’t block me now b/c of that lol. I’m just using this to put my thoughts into words as I think of them and so you can contact me again eventuallyhttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="❤️" title="Red heart" aria-label="Emoji: Red heart">)
