I want to revamp my whole life! New city, new city, new job, new friends and just a whole new lifestyle. I’m sick of trying to explain myself to people and trying to make everyone around me comfortable when no one is doing the same for me. I’m basically sick of being fake!
I used to tolerate a lot of people and things in my life because I didn’t want to create tension with people but fuck that now! I’m going to speak my mind about everything that’s bothering me. I just sick of being the “nice guy”.
In the words of @Kehlani “If I got to be a bitch, imma be a BAD ONE!”
It’s hard when you open up to people and let them see the real you and they still used you and don’t value you worth or friendship. Anyone that knows me know I have a huge heart and wouldn’t hurt a fly but people see that as a weakness and take advantage of it.
I’m not weak! I’m a great human being. Yes I have my days, weeks, even months where I don’t want to be bother by anyone, not even my own family but people take everything personal and make it about them. I’m naturally a loner. I been a loner my whole life.
I don’t need people to make me happy. I’m at my happiest when I’m by myself, vibing to my music, and smoking a blunt.
I’m sorry for this thread but I feel like I been losing so many people in my life that I thought really knew me and understood me just for staying in my own lane.