TW // sexualization !! @/readberserkk

so ive had this saved in my photos and ive always been too scared to expose it bc i felt like i was overreacting bc i am 18, like maybe i was to blame for this entire ordeal but i promised myself that if it happened again, i would do it.

so me and plenty of other people were added into a gc made by @/readberserkk, he made little inneundos and flirtacious jokes but we all assumed that they WERE jokes and he didnt mean any of it. then i posted a selfie of me and suddenly he dmed me saying he'd simp for me n soforth

i took it as a joke bc thats what people do ... they say theyd simp/ have a crush on you bc its cute n nice !! until suddenly it wasnt cute and playful anymore. he kept sexualizing me in the gc for the things id say but i felt too scared to call him out on it so id ignore him

this kept on for the short time that we had the gc until he actually dmed me n i ?? i didnt know what to say i was too scared to say something negative in case there was unneeded hostility, i felt like all i could do was make jokes out of the situation i was in

he then CONTINUED to sexualize me in the gc and i was so confused as to WHY me, why was the new person on anitwt being the target for this dude who had 1k followers and people who wanted to be his friend way earlier than me.

a couple days after jayden was sending group pics into the gc and saying how he wanted a group of friends to take pictures like the ones he sent. i made a joke and he took it too far. he body shamed me and ghosted when called out on it and asked to apologize

he took it as a joke and the entire gc went silent. i didnt know what to say but i was MAD ! mad to why this guy i barely knew was body shaming me and treating me like an object he could sexualize any time he wanted so like any sane person would, i called him out.

he apologized but like u saw ... it wasnt a genuine apology. he apologized bc he got caught and bc people noticed that what he said was INSANELY fucked up. the others in the gc even tried to get him back to apologize and were comforting me when they realized me n him werent close

anyways. a couple hours later he dmed me an apology but it was so backhanded, like "im sorry YOU couldnt take my joke but not bc i hurt you" but i was stupid so i told him it was fine and lectured him on body image and "jokes" that shouldnt be said

he then tweeted these from his acc that day which ??? was basically him trying to save his own ass. he also rted my psa tweet about not sexualizing people without their consent

not to mention his entire rt/ feed are selfies of girls on anitwt which more subjectifies them into being something pretty he can put on his feed rather than to hype them up like a friend would.

i felt like i couldnt say anythinf bc i am 18 he didnt do anything wrong. i was stuck in the mindset of "im not a minor so that means he can say that and get by" but i know now that it isnt okay. regardless of age it isnt and never will be okay