Re productivity
I run a brick n mortar art shop
no online shop no PayPal
I'm not 'working from home' aside from drumming up some gift certificates thank gods
I'm an artist too been drawing a bit but mostly cooking cleaning parenting
This is a great reset for me
Weird vacation

I'm not being productive again thank gods
I'm decompressing & am privileged enough to worry only a little bit so far (will probably have to retool my art shop into something a tad more essential yeah yeah art is essential gimme a break)
I'm not overthinking my next chapter

Im hoping it'll come to me
Like a vision
Some meaningful cross section of art, education, permaculture, healing that the world needs lol
I need a yard and a home studio which means we can't stay where we are and can't yet afford to move
AND MOVE WHERE ???????

Afford is a funny concept
I want to get to the shop and clean it out and clean it up
Return peoples art, settle accounts
Recenter the tools I have and the resources
Reduce the retail space
Get community in there more
Ideas from folks who know me & my space totally welcome

We used to live above the shop but don't anymore
It had its problems but I also miss it
I needed the distance but in this situation I wish I could go downstairs and push materials around
Now i know how unhealthy having all that stuff is
Lived without it for a month

I don't miss my shop
At all
I miss some of my stuff I guess but I'm losing sight of its value
I love my wonderful collections of all sorts of ephemera, they are astounding...objectively groovy stuff
But I can live without them
I can regenerate collections if I had to

We go for walks to abandoned sites nearby
At the construction sites there's these rusted twists if wire in gorgeous shapes
Before I'd grab them and take them to the shop
Now I leave them partly bc I'm not touching stuff partly bc why? Why should I take these things home?

This is a lifetime of collecting found items
Check litterwitch in my bio
It's a huge part of my identity
Finding things
Finding magic
Making magic
Making things
But right now, I don't need to collect the rusted strands of wire no matter how decidedly pretty they are

It's a time to reduce but not throw away
I need to scale down but not burden the curbs with junk folks may be afraid to touch
So I'm not adding to my stockpile of found poetry
I need to keep pause pressed and start a serious editing job
I do not envy myself

This is a rambling thread
I've needed to write for a while
Drawing comes out in nervous scratches
Writing forces cohesion into my system
This has helped me verbalize some vague thoughts

Every time I've been on vacation I forget about home work and all my stuff
I don't miss it
Now I love being at home although I could use my own room
Who couldn't?
But I don't miss what I've trained myself to think of as work for the last twenty years

My shop is cool and I love aspects of it
I hate other aspects of it though
I think if I didn't have the shop I could make something else pretty cool too
What that something else is right now I do not know yet

Thanks for reading this

I'm doing 15 push ups a day and a bunch of stretches

I want to come out of this thing stronger than I went into it

I'm turning 52 this summer

I want to visualize 60 and be pleased with what I see of my contribution to this world