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It& #39;s hard keeping our opinions to ourselves. Especially when one of our alters is so ready to spew his anger. He& #39;s so close to conciousness, so talking to him is a bit easier. It feels like talking into pillows because our communication still sucks. (1/10)
But he is able to see what& #39;s going on mostly, I know this because I can feel an emotional reaction to things as we see them. A reaction that is not our own.
He& #39;s very angry at the state of things online surrounding DID. I& #39;m interpreting it as this: (2/10)
He& #39;s very angry at the state of things online surrounding DID. I& #39;m interpreting it as this: (2/10)
He is angry that allegations have arisen against notable systems. He& #39;s angry that these things happened. He& #39;s angry that we finally found a community, then it gets torn apart. He is a protector after all, so he just wants the system to be happy and (3/10)
safe. Now that I (Bea) have seen the effects of the controversy, I feel uneasy about connecting with anyone online. I always should have always been on guard, I know. But this community felt safe, filled with others who understood our (4/10)
experiences. After learning about DID, many of our amnesia "episodes" made sense. The voices I heard, the clouded memories, the missing ones, everything fell into place. I contacted a trauma specialist who ended up diagnosing us in a couple months (5/10)
later after weekly, excruciating sessions. It was hard. I came online to find more people with the diagnosis, I felt I had found a place for us to be ourselves, uncensored. We could talk about our "abnormal" experiences without feeling (6/10)
weird or "crazy." I felt good. Then it became apparent that the DID community is just like any other. There is so much hatred boiling in people& #39;s blood and hearts. I& #39;ve seen death threats, doxx threats, and assault threats from systems to others. (7/10)
It is sickening. My system may suffer exponentially from the horrific abuse our family put us through, hell, we don& #39;t even remember all of it. But we would never, ever think to harm someone for having differing viewpoints. (8/10)
But many people in this community have no issue doing so. I& #39;ve seen so many Twitter fits and fights... I am so saddened by it all. Our protector is urging me to delete our account rn. I can hear his muffled words. So if this account disappears, don& #39;t (9/10)
say I didn& #39;t warn you. Idk what the purpose of this thread is. Just writing some thoughts down I guess. (10/10
