i have had three chem related breakdowns in one day bc i'm already so stressed about other things and WOW i have never wanted to drop a class more. i just want to take it when i transfer colleges bc it's so bad online. it was bad in person but it got worse.

however if i drop it my parents will say i'm giving up and that i'm a failure or something along those lines and man i WILL cry bc i already think i'm too stupid for this and hate myself for giving in to mental illness even tho logically i know it's being exacerbated by covid

im sorry for talking about myself so much and i'll likely delete this thread when i boot up twitter again and get embarrassed when i see how childish i'm acting