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re: zero episode 18 hits different right now. i have some perspective i didn't have back when i first watched this anime. honestly re-watching it has encouraged a lot of reflection. because tbqh subaru through most of the show reminds me a bit of myself, past and present
to make it clear, i know he was full of shit for a long while, and in the wrong pretty often. he was self centred, naive, brash, petulant at times, and many other things. he embodies traits and behaviours i couldn't (or wouldn't) recognise in myself Years ago. and he does it all
to project a particular image of himself, itself misguided and stupid. maybe in another anime i would Hate a character like this, but here it's written pretty well. he's made to confront the ugliest parts of himself, he's forced to grow past his limited mindset
he becomes more capable of recognising other people's wills and interests beyond the scope of anything that serves his own delusions about the world. seeing his journey brings to mind some of my own memories and experiences, how i've grown and how i can still improve
like legitimately re: zero is really good, for a few reasons, but the big one for me is the characters and subaru himself the prime one. i like how he's used partly as a means to show the flaws in certain ways of thinking and certain behaviours, because again Self Reflection
i don't wanna make this thread any longer because i could (and honestly kinda want to) go on But also i know i'd be screaming into the void for the most part and i also just wanted to use this to make myself feel better anyway (which it did.) i like talking about stories But
i don't know if i'm up for real conversation at the moment. it'd be a disservice to anyone seeing this for me to pretend otherwise. tweets are cool but texts and stuff feel like a whole different country at the moment. i'll be back Properly eventually i think
