Nakakainis itong Dark Blue Kiss. Kasi I've been there. On opposite sides.

I was kept as a secret for far too long - almost six years. Sa tagal, naconvince ko sarili ko na it was all good, may sarili kayong mundo, kayo lang ang nakakaalam. I thought that was all that I deserved.

I was so disillusioned na I thought he only wanted the best for us both. That he was doing it for us.

Pero no, it was all to his convenience.

For six years, tangina, sunod lang ako sa gusto niya. I did not want to lose him. But I was already losing myself.

Not once did he hold my hand in public. Not once did he introduce me to his friends. Not once did he kiss me goodbye. Kahit ata hug, wala.

Laging nakaw. Laging tago. Laging may takot. Laging may alangan.

And I thought that was love??? Ang tanga ko no. Six years yan ha.

In the end, he broke up with me. I gave him six years of my life.

I have wondered, like, kasama kayo ako sa bilang niya when he's out there, getting dates, making friends?

I thought, malamang hindi.

And that made moving on from him harder than it already was.

When Renzo held my hand out in public for the first time, I hesitated. I was almost afraid. It would take me a while to get used to it.

It is the best feeling in the world.

We would walk through a crowd of people and he would search for my hand from behind and hold it tightly.