Ngl I really wish I had a hobby that I didn't have to hide away or justify when around out siders. Im very used to the comfort of being in this community that it has created a "norm" bubble for me and its uncomfortable being out of that bubble.

To the point where I dont want to have friends outside of this community. Even if they are neutral i still feel this feeling of judgement and shame if its ever brought up around them

Idk. Its just very scary that a simple hobby could make people turn on you and wish you to die. Id never get that reaction if I was simply into cars or just drawing still life or portraits or playing sports.