It's weird how heartbreak never really leaves you; it lurks in the corner forever and then you find something like a stash of ex's letters while cleaning and all the memories pounce and hit you like a truck.

I get the same sensation when looking through old Warframe footage.

I suppose it's always the sense of "what if" and if things could have turned out differently that cause that sting.

And as much as I often feel like a shithead for bungling many aspects of that ex-relationship, I definitely don't feel that guilt when it comes to WF

It's unfair to miss the idea of someone like an ex or a game (since that's a constructed ideal, not the actual person or product)

But that said I really do miss the person I remember being 3-4 years ago.

Back then I felt like I still had hope for a lot of things. I thought I had found my spot on Youtube and finally found a game to believe in.

I was still very flawed, but I was motivated

If only I knew how hard this game would grind my hopes to dust.

Not saying WF was the only reason I've become a bitter and cynical hermit, but it definitely was a major factor.

I dunno. I kinda want the old me back. The guy who really sucked at editing but had the spirit and confidence to still put it out there.

Sorry if this thread's been a downer. Sometimes you find something that really just makes you sit down for an hour and think about stupid shit