My Mum made me power of attorney because she trusted me to carry out her wishes come the time of her death, I didn`t expect to have to honour them so soon but I promised her I would continue to see the beauty in the world & capture it so I will share the past few days captures.

@Penbrynhir I thought of you when I took these.

I have always admired natures ability to settle and grow almost anywhere, I draw strength from nature almost every day of my life.

Yellow archangel was covered with my beautiful fuzzy friends, I also have a bumblebee nest in my garden shed by the looks of things as they have been coming in and out of a hole near the ground for days now.

It`s so wonderful to have these beautiful pollinators back in my world again and during such a difficult time they give me great comfort and remind me to smile.

I really did see the Easter bunny yesterday.

New life and even life that comes from death were all messages of hope, nature speaks to me without words as it always has and reminds me to just keep going.

Taken on Easter Sunday when I was struggling to keep myself from falling apart, I sat on my big moss covered rock in the deep woodlands where my skinny legs found me and came closer than ever, twice landing on my welly.

I love these wee birds, so curious and bold.

March marigolds, fungi,wood anemones and bees all getting on with life around me and during the madness and chaos that surrounds us all, I find solace in the fact nature is constant. In nature all is normal.

I watch a pair of Jackdaws gather nest materials and think of the new life they are getting ready to create.

A Jenny Wren appears in the hedgerow and I am quick enough to get a few captures. Even when I am feeling so numb & lost my instincts to capture nature take over and I never have to think about it, it always just happens and it`s such a natural feeling for me.

I am happy that nature will never know my human sorrow or emotions.

Nature knows only the cycle of survival and although simple in comparison to the human world, it is for me the most inspirational influence.

These were taken yesterday as I walked to my Mum`s to do the final packing away of her belongings and as I walked in the sun I told myself my Mum would be in her garden pottering with her gnomes and moaning about her knees, I told myself this was just a bad dream.

Suddenly I felt a tidal wave of emotions hit me, panic, fear, intense sadness, a great hollow pain and the most gut wrenching sinking feeling of reality and I felt the tears welling up.I was so close to falling apart, I wanted to fall to my knees and sob but I just couldn`t.

I have too many promises to fulfil so I clung on to nature and behind my lens I focussed on my first small tortoiseshell butterfly of the year. I will break in time, I will shatter into a thousand pieces & somehow rebuild myself but just not now.I just can`t.

I switched to my 4 macro challenge, the empty shell felt like a mirror image of myself, I saw strength in the fragile beauty of tiny blooms and I saw the continuation of life in front of my very eyes & through nature I made it without breaking.