lemme be real about child porn here.

i used to post lewds (boobs, panty pics and all that) when i was 15. lemme admit that i got around 16k followers and it felt amazing. as a person who didn’t rlly have friends, i felt accepted into the community. little did i know, 85% of my+

followers were adults. 18 plus. not only they were 24, 28, but they were 40 plus. tons of them. i talked to them, sent pics on almost a daily basis. at this point, no one warned me. there were so many guys who would want to get together with me, and i loved the fucking attention

long story short, when i turned 16, i thought, isn’t this a legal age? so i posted more, and at this point, i regret it so much. i got an nsfw bf, he FORCED me to sell nudes.. a 16 year old selling nudes, what the fuck? where did the money go, u may ask? with him, he bought

fucking ps4 and computer games. i was fine with that, but what fucked me up was how i view relationships. that person changed my whole point of view of the term “love” he was just 19 at that time btw. i wouldn’t say he controlled me, but he somehow did with the selling part.

we rarely talk, not just because of the time zones, but he kept gaming. he’d only talk when he needed attention and this lasted for almost 9 months. he kept breaking up with me, getting back together again and within those breaks, ofc i was drawn to other guys. i lacked attention

as i conversed and talked to other guys, they’d ask for nudes and i’d always send, based on the “view” of how nsfw twitter works from that nsfw bf. honestly, i was controlled. i’d send anything to them since i was sometimes threatened. it was fucked.

lemme just make this really short, but, finally, some good people found me, didn’t talk to me at all, but just kept reporting, and overnight, i was suspended. i didn’t know why. i thought what i was doing was right. no one talked to me about it, why i was wrong and everything.

i didn’t bother with nsfw anymore. i came back after a while since i craved the attention, but now i didn’t post lewds. i conversed with tons of people regarding minors posting nudes, i was very open to know why i got suspended. and with that i learned.

what i’m saying is that, the nsfw community didn’t view me as a person, but as a sexual object. i was mentally unstable, i thought thru attention i’d get better, but no, it worsened. i couldn’t open up to anyone about this. i felt lost, but i still kept doing it.

i had another account before this, i deactivated it. i took a break, but now, i wanted to start again. make friends and all that, talk to minors who post nudes and stuff.

this thread is really messy, if u have any questions, feel free to dm me. i dont mind answering them!