Just had a text conversation with my care coordinator that I can only half remember what we were talking about. Apparently the cmht have been trying to call me too but I've got no idea wtf shes talking about. Shes calling me tomorrow to "tell me the plan".

So now I'm fucking panicking because last time she said that things went really badly & I've told her I'm panicking & shes stopped responding. DONT DO THIS to people with anxiety are you actually fucking kidding me.

I cant deal with all this shit anymore..but also cant deal with myself & everything in my head anymore. What the fuck am I meant to do.