i've spent the past 12 years of my life in pursuit of becoming a teacher. i've been teaching since 2014, but there's always a new hoop for us to jump through. i'm in grad school to become a better teacher. teaching is what i've always wanted to do. but now, i'm ready to quit. 1/

12 years making sure pics of me were PG so teacher programs couldn't use them against me. i was pulled from (and fought against) two undergrad programs. i withdrew from one in grad school (to use that time/energy towards teaching). i'm currently in another grad level program. 2/

i'm struggling with teaching and being a student, but i'm making it work this time. i'm dedicated, like i've always been. i've never let any obstacle stop me. i've never let any buttheads get in my way. i've always been determined. 3/

i've taught family members of former students. i've tutored family members of current & former students, even if they didn't go to my school. hell, i've even tutored parents! my payment? ha. "just make sure y'all got some snacks so we don't get hungry!" 4/

i love my students. i love being there for them. i love letting them know they can always count on me. the stress of being a teacher, the long hours, the extra work, everything was worth it because i know i'm making a difference. 5/

so why am i finally ready to give up? BECAUSE IT'S BEEN 12 DAMN YEARS OF ME TRYING AND I'M TIRED. it's like in movies when olympic kids have their dad's as trainers and the dad is always critiquing them, never allowing them to experience just being good at something. 6/

everything is based off of how your superiors think things should go. "he worded it this way instead of that way." BECAUSE I KNOW MY STUDENTS AND MY STRENGTHS. but that's not what gets counted. only what they see, compared to what THEY THINK should have happened. 7/

now i'm just rambling. but here's what really broke the camel's back - remote teaching. i didn't sign up for this shit. i didn't sign up to teach from a computer that has 13 windows, 97 tabs, an unknown number of shared drives, folders, docs, etc. all open at once. 8/

i didn't sign up to be a case manager, calling families to inquire about all kinds of things. i didn't sign up to assign boring ass online lessons to students.

i signed up to be a teacher in a classroom. that is what i spent 12 years of my life learning how to do. 9/

but now everything has changed and this is the new norm for the time being. but i don't operate like this. this isn't the best version of me. this isn't for me.

this remote teaching crap is what's going to finally cause me to throw in the towel. 10/

after all the shit i've been through to become a teacher, and never letting any of it stop me - i'm finally at my breaking point due to this remote teaching stuff. can't quit though, because of bills! joy! 11/

so if anyone has any money to offer so i can rid my life of teacher debt AND FIND ANOTHER WAY OF LIFE, please share. because life is hard, it sucks, and i'm not cut out to be a remote teacher.

thanks for coming to my rant. 12/12