My family was poor for awhile. My folks lost a business and we ended up moving away and did not have shit. I was youngish, but not old enough to work. My parents took whatever jobs they could find.

Fast forward to now. Growing up middle-class then poor - I have issues with money. Not making it - I went to work as soon as I was old enough - I’ve been lucky in my career (and good, I suppose) but never a great saver.

I found a solution - get it away from me. Sink it into 401k and investments. About 20% of my pay automatically goes there. I’m lucky. I know how to live on less, so it’s basically painless.

So. Right now? People are hoarding shit. I feel like liquidating everything and hiding it under my bed. It’s scary, not knowing what the future holds AT ALL, and having no real projections to guess with.

I have issues with money. Deep-seated-need-to-talk-to-a-professional issues. And this is all frightening. I’ve been middle class, I’ve been poor, I’ve almost almost been homeless. Nothing has ever shaken me like this.

How long will I get to keep my job? Who would I be without a job? How can I take care of myself and my family without one?

I don’t know where I’m going with this thread. Just need to get it off my chest. I’m not easily scared, but this has been gnawing at me.