as i get older it gets harder to cope with the fact that all my friends are married or dating, including the queer ones, and then there& #39;s me, who& #39;s had the person i liked in college RUN AWAY FROM ME when i confessed, given friends anxiety attacks because i liked them, have

been upfront about my feelings and been told they "don& #39;t know how to process that information"

why didn& #39;t i give up in middle school when the girl i liked had her friend record her making fun of me just so he could send it directly to me

"i had a crush on you two years ago, just thought you should know." well thank god we moved past that mistake, huh!!! way to make me feel like shit!!!

the point of this thread is it& #39;s very rough to say the least when the world is determined to remind you of how repulsive and unlovable you are, and on days like today when i seem to be fixated on doing The Bad Thing it& #39;s extremely hard to argue with the evidence