Twitter fam, I& #39;m sorry for this long thread that& #39;s coming and for getting into this topic, but I gotta get this out somehow, and y& #39;all are my most direct support right now.

For those of you that don& #39;t know me well, I married my High School sweetheart. We were married over 1/7
18 years when we got divorced. Even before the divorce was final, I fell into another serious relationship that went as far as us getting engaged. Toward the end of last year, I ended that relationship. I realized I had never been on my own and never learned who I truly was 2/7
as a person. So we split, my partner moved out and for the first time I& #39;ve been learning to live alone. I knew this would be hard but necessary. I built a strategy to deal with it. I had my work, the travel, conferences, seeing friends etc. that were all a part of my plan. 3/7
They would provide consistency while I learned to deal with not having that other person there to lean on, as I discovered the real me. Then COVID-19 hit, and that coping strategy fell apart completely.

We& #39;re all dealing with a level of uncertainty we& #39;ve never been 4/7
exposed to before. And for me, it& #39;s compounding an already heightened degree of instability and confusion.

Tonight I realized just how bad this is getting. I& #39;m honestly scared that I& #39;m not holding it together as well as I thought. For the first time in over a year 5/7
I had a full-on can& #39;t breath, walls closing in panic attack. It was terrifying. A walk outside in the rain thankfully restored enough conscious thought that I was able to center and refocus.

Anyway, I& #39;m not sharing this for any reason other than that I needed to get it 6/7
out. That& #39;s a coping mechanism too.

I know many of us are dealing with similar issues, so please know you& #39;re not alone and you& #39;re not weak. This is hard shit right now. If you made it this far, thank you for reading. I love you all, stay safe. 7/7
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