Me ranting

A thread

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Hello i would like to rant
My mom left to go hang out with her friend then
/tw alcohol which auto corrext thinks should be cochin/
comes home fucking wasted as shit tells me shes drunk as fuck and that she almost hit someone on thr way home then shows me the bottle she was

drinking and how its almost empty and it was full when she left then just starts to bash me for barely eating then eats and goes to bed leaving me in charge of my brothers and everything else
I swear to god i want to be able to tell someone
/tw: mental health self harm ect./
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dont want to live anymore i want to start cutting more i want jump off my balcony pop pills again my mental health is so bad and i cant tell anyone because no one cares my mom tells me i have no reason to feel that way my grandma tells me the same thing and has even made me cry

and told me to be a alcoholic instead of going to my therapist who i might never get to see again if she isnt covered by insurance i already have to have another psychiatric evalualtion because of a lady whos no longer on my insurance and i dont want to have to meet someone new

but i need new pills and im scared to take my depression meds because i dont want to run out before i meet this new person and im scared my therapist isnt covered any more and my mom stresses me out more sometimes because of the way she came home yet shes panicing me about my

trip which might not happen if quarantine isnt lifted and shes kicking me out for a month if i go
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This has been my rant thread
Thank you for reading/listening